The Missing Piece

I look around and all I see

Are the places where you should be,

Here in my arms held so tight,

At home to tuck you in at night.

I try to see the world without you,

But each day gets harder to get through.

Tired of this aching, drowning desire,

Will someone please help douse this fire?

It’s burning me up from the inside out,

So lost without you day in and day out.

I just want the chance to be your mommy,

Am I being punished? If so, I am sorry.

I can be better I promise I’ll try,

I’ll do what He wants and even abide,

I’ll tell everyone about his amazing grace,

If just one time I could see your sweet face.

I’ll shout to the roof tops that He is king,

If just one time I could feel complete.

Bargaining with Him is not the plan,

I just want to be given a chance.

A chance to be the best mom ever,

A chance to completely feel together.

Your absence it’s gets bigger each day,

It will never ever go away.

My heart it breaks, it shatters each time,

I hear the news of another with child.

I don’t wish bad things for them,

It’s just too hard to not feel.

The grief from the loss of your absence,

The missing part of my existence.

Maybe one day I will feel complete,

Maybe not, but I guess we will see.