Let Go & Let God

I guess for anyone reading this blog that doesn’t already our journey is far from over. It has been about 10 months since my last post, and so much has happened. I continued to participate in the PCOS research study at UAB through June. Then, I went to see a new specialist for a 2^nd opinion. Her opinion was the same as my 1^st specialist. In June I launched a support group for anyone battling with infertility or going through the adoption process. The group has given me new purpose. I do struggle with whether or not I am actually making a difference at all, but I hope that one day I will see that something positive came out of all of this. I hope that in some way I could make a difference in the lives of the ones that are going through the same things that I have. In the recent months, many around us have announced that they are expecting. It is extremely hard to see your friends and loved ones move forward with their lives, to see their families grow, and yet somehow you seem to be standing still. Just when you think you have made some progress in dealing with your emotions someone says those two words you long to say “I’m Pregnant” and all that work you put into being strong and growing as an individual goes out the window. Your heart breaks and there is nothing you can do. I think so many don’t understand how to approach the situation when you have someone in your family that is struggling with infertility. When you become pregnant how do you tell them? Well, I can tell you this blurting it out, sending it in a text message or seeing it in Facebook is not the way to go. If it is someone close have the courtesy to pull them aside and share the news. I think in taking two minutes to tell them in person shows that you care about what they are going through, and you are concerned with their feelings. Someone very close to us had the courtesy to do this, and it meant the world to us. In addition to the support group, I have also been writing periodically in a newsletter for an adoption agency that circulates nationwide. Recently, Brad and I have decided to pursue adoption. We are in the early stages right now. We are beginning with DHR and I have looked into several adoption agencies, and adoption grants, etc. We begin our classes through DHR in 2 weeks. I have mixed emotions about it, but I am excited. We have a long way to go, but we have come so far. I can’t give up on becoming the mother I know that I am meant to be. I am just going to try my best to let God guide my decisions, and see where it takes us.