Our Very First IUI

I would say that my doctor’s appt. yesterday was successful. Brad & I went in and met with the doctor to discuss what has been going on with the last tests that were done & to see where we go from here. They did some blood work and what they call a baseline (sonogram) to see where I am as far as follicles forming & all that stuff. Everything looked good, lining was good, so we decided to do our very first IUI (artificial insemination). We still have a few things to do to prep for the procedure, but in about 2-3 weeks we should be able to do it. She gave me a couple of prescriptions. 1 is called letrazole, she gave me this instead of Clomid which I have used numerous times. She also gave me a prescription for HCG. Now HCG is being used for a dietary thing, so its harder for the dr’s office to get, and so she gave me this prescription, I called ahead to my pharmacy asked if they had it in stock the woman said yes, and to make a long story short after several calls to different pharmacies in the area, no one has it or can order it because its not sold retail, which means I either have to order online or go to some place in b’ham if they have it. Waiting on the dr’s office to call me and tell me if they know of anyone that carries it in stock. Apparently only “Specialty Pharmacies” have this stuff. I know that herbal places carry it but I think it’s just the drops and this has to be injected in the dr’s office so, it’s been a headache. We are excited to start this new process, and understand that it may not work on the first try & for some couples it never works, but this is what we have been waiting for. I know that no matter what the doctors do, a baby is not possible without God therefore, for those of you who read this, if anyone does read this, please pray that God’s will be done, and if that means we will conceive via IUI then GREAT!! BUT if not, then we move on to the next option. I don’t know financially how many cycles we will be able to do, but I am willing to do whatever I possibly can to make sure we can do this. So, prayers are needed. Overall Good News yesterday, which was much needed!

Just some thoughts

Since not taking the progesterone pills, I have definitely leveled out. I don’t feel so out of balance. I kind of feel like myself, whatever that feels like. I keep thinking about our doctors appointment next week. I keep wondering what our next step will be. I wish that I didn’t have to wait so long, but I am grateful for the break in medication & tests. I would really like to try artificial insemination, and am excited to think about the possibility, but I know that whether we do IVF or Artificial Insemination that it doesn’t always take the first time, which means that it could take several attempts. I don’t really care how many attempts it takes as long as it takes, and we have a baby. There is a risk of multiples either way, but a higher risk with IVF (and I don’t know about Carrie & Brad + 8). How do you support that many mouths. It’s a little scary, but if that is what God wants for us then I guess we will figure it out. I am just ready to be a mommy. I think about it a lot, the thought of this little person calling me mommy. I never want to take it for granted, and I wish that others around me wouldn’t take it for granted either. Think about how empty their lives would be without their children, how every moment, every day is special and they should cherish it. I know parenting is not easy and at times it’s harder than I can imagine but to know that you were able to experience this miracle that God has given you. To know that you and no one else to make tears fade, pain go away, give comfort & love like no one else can. I just think about my mother and what she means to me and how sometimes she’s the only one that can make me feel better about things. I want to be that for our baby one day. I also want this hole in my heart to be filled with tears of joy from being pregnant, prayers & miracles coming true, the joy & laughter & all that comes with it when having a child. I want to not think about whether or not we will ever have a baby, I want to not get upset every time I see someone with a baby or someone pregnant, I want to not get jealous of everyone who has kids, I want to wake up and not think about not being pregnant or having kids one day, I want to not feel guilty because I can’t give the one man in this world that I would give my life for the one thing that I just cant give him right now, I want to stop worrying about being patient and learn from this experience, I want to stop wondering what is next, and will it ever happen. Five years is a long time, and I know that I have grown a lot in that time, and I still have a lot of growing to do. I would just like some kind of answers. What purpose do I have in all of this? What is God’s plan for me? What is His will for my life? What’s His Plan? I know people have waited longer to have kids, and I know in God’s time it will happen.  It doesn’t make the days any easier, until that time comes.

Great Results

Everything went good yesterday with the HSG test. There were no blockages & my uterus looked good as well (I guess as good as a uterus can look, lol). God has truly answered a lot of prayers, and I know that before long we are gonna have a baby !!

More Tests

I had a Dr’s appt yesterday. They did a sonogram to check the lining of my uterus. It has finally thinned out! YAY! Now, they have me scheduled for an HSG test tomorrow.

“During a hysterosalpingogram, a dye (contrast material) is put through a thin tube that is put through the vagina and into the uterus. Because the uterus and the fallopian tubes are hooked together, the dye will flow into the fallopian tubes. Pictures are taken using a steady beam of X-ray (fluoroscopy) as the dye passes through the uterus and fallopian tubes. The pictures can show problems such as an injury or abnormal structure of the uterus or fallopian tubes, or a blockage that would prevent an egg moving through a fallopian tube to the uterus. A blockage also could prevent sperm from moving into a fallopian tube and joining (fertilizing) an egg. A hysterosalpingogram also may find problems on the inside of the uterus that prevent a fertilized egg from attaching (implanting) to the uterine wall (WebMD)”

This will be my second time having this done. Really not looking forward to it, but it must be done. After the results of the HSG test comes back , we then will do a follow up with the doctor & she will discuss options of medications, treatments, IVF, etc. I know everything is gonna be ok with this test & we are progressing.

I also, wanted to ask anyone reading this to please pray for a friend of mine. She lost her baby last week. She’s having a tough time, and I know that its not gonna get easier anytime soon. She was about to go into her second tri-mester. I thank God that we havent had to experience this, and pray that we never will.

Good News

Got my test results back from the biopsy Monday. Nurse called yesterday and said everything is ok. I am not going to have to have a D&C, and they are taking me off birth control, finally. I am to start taking prometrium (progesterone pills) today. I think my ovaries are getting whip lash from all this start period stop period start period stop period. Anyways, can’t say how totally excited I am to finally be off the birth control! After I start I will have to go in for a sonogram then they will schedule the HSG test (dye test where they inject dye into your tubes to check for blockages—EEEK- not looking forward to that). I am so thankful for God taking control and taking care of this for us. I know that I wouldn’t be where I am without HIM. I am optimistic that everything is going to work out the way that God has planned, and we will have a baby soon.