Just Another Bump in the road

So yesterday was my appointment with the fertility doctor. In my last post I mentioned that they found some abnormal cells in my uterus & was going to do a biopsy & possible D&C. I got back to the sonar room, they set me up to do a sonogram first, I had to pee so bad I could hardly stand it, the push & shove of the sonogram made things more uncomfortable than usual. I asked the nurse if I could use the restroom she said ok, the doctor comes in & starts getting my prepared for the biopsy, she inserts this needle into my uterus to sort of deaden it (like when you go to the dentist), once she is in there she explains that the sonogram detected a “heart shaped uterus” she then decides to do another test while I am there to save me another trip, the 2^nd test is called a “SIS or saline infusion sonogram” (I will explain that a little later). She wanted to do this SIS test to see how badly my uterus was inverted. I asked what it meant to have a heart shaped uterus and she explained that it meant higher risk pregnancies (which I am already in that category), miscarriages are likely, possible trouble conceiving. I guess the expression on my face showed less than pleased with this news & she then explained it could be fixed with surgery. I was discouraged & worried to say the least. So, anyways back to the biopsy, after she deadens the area she asks if my bladder is full and I explain that I just used the restroom. She then tells me that they cant do either of the tests (biopsy or sis) unless my bladder is full. So, while I am numbing up I have to drink lots of water. 2- 20z bottles of water, & an hour later, I was about to pop. She finally comes back in the room and starts setting up to the sis test first. They thread a cathedra into your uterus and insert a saline solution that acts as a balloon to stretch everything out in your uterus so that they can get a clear view. The test was most definitely uncomfortable, I wasn’t sure if it was due to my extremely full bladder or just the test itself was causing this uncomfortableness, I say uncomfortable because I wouldn’t describe it as extremely painful, but it was definitely not a pleasant experience and one that I don’t care to repeat anytime soon. During the test I tried to listen to what the doctor & nurse were saying but had a hard time focusing on anything but my discomfort. Trying to remember to breathe & relax. I heard them mention some polyps, something about ¼ inch inversion or something of that sort, and some other things that I don’t quite remember. After she finished with this test they started the biopsy, by this time, I have to pee so bad that I am hurting and ready to get all of this over with. She doesn’t numb the area again she just started the process and immediately I felt a cramping feeling and then a more intense pain that made me want to cry. I am sure that it took less than a minute but it felt like forever. I was having trouble remembering to breathe, and my heart was pounding so fast. After she finished, my body was in frenzy. I wasn’t quite sure what to feel or what to do. I just remember asking if I could use the restroom and she said yes. After that things were a little better. I tried to just relax and control my breathing. So, today I am left with soreness on my insides and a bit of worry about everything that happened yesterday.  I won’t know the results of the biopsy until the first of next week (I hope). I feel that everything is going to be ok, and that God is going to take care of everything. I just feel that every time something good happens I am slammed with 3 more things that are not good. It’s all part of our journey, but what a crazy journey it has been so far. I just don’t think I could handle any of this without the support of my friends, family, God, and my wonderful, supportive, husband. I can’t give him enough praise for everything that he does & has done. I thank God for him, everyday.